Sweetheart, this time I'm moving on.
No more waiting(:
Cos I know I worth more than this.
Gonna be a better self.
No more getting all sad over whats done.
Takdir Allah(:

When I recall back all the past memories,
I find myself smiling to myself.
You truly made me happy I must say(:

The key to your heart, I am giving it back to you.
Give the key to the person that truly deserve it more than I do.
Hah, I still rmb how you brought up the whole key thing.
Silly much.
I'll slowly return everything back to you.
That way, it is easier for me to pick up the pieces faster.
(:

Yes, my emotions are still not stable. One minute I'm all happy , another minute I'm all sad.
But each time I'm sad, I pick myself up much faster than before.
I tell myself to be happier than I am before.
It's a challenge but oh yea bring it on.
Because I know thats how I learn from my mistakes.
Its time I give myself time of my own.
Understand what happiness from within truly means.
Then that way I become a better person.
And I'm giving myself justice.(:
But picking myself up wasnt possible without my love ones who are constantly there for me(:
So thank you Allah,
For allowing me to meet these lovely people in my life.
I cant thank you enough (':
It is definitely a blessing in disguise!

Oh honey, I would love to punch you so hard right now.

Its sad when someone who knows alot about you more than other people just leave your life suddenly.
So would this someone still remember your fav food, fav music, your habits when they see you outside?

Life is a little better now than the starting of the week.
Blessed to have my bestfriends whom have been there for me throughout.
Blessed to have my good friends whom checked on me to ensure I'm doing fine everyday.
Blessed to have my classmates asking if I'm doing okay when I wasn't myself and for giving such positive & high vibes in class.
Blessed to have such a good mentor whom gave me advices that I really need and cheering me up in the centre.
Blessed to have my CPF colleagues whom ensure I'm doing just fine though we rarely meet.
Gotta thank my cousin for being there for me whenever he can even though he was busy at camp.
Oh yes! My N2 babies too. Somehow they sense I wasnt myself, they came up to me and start greeting me and telling me that they dont want me to leave for school.
This time, I'm gonna make sure I dont stay so long in the deep dark hole.
Been there before and I made myself suffered so much.
Gotta learn my lesson.
Its not gonna be easy, but with the loved ones around, I am going to make it through.(:
I'll slowly channel my focus to what's currently in my life.
Dear Allah,
Thank you for all these lovely people in my life<3

So many advices.
But at the end of the day, what do I really want?
If I follow my own heart, would I succeed? or would I just struggle again?

I want to fight this so bad.
If people could succeed in it, why cant we?

I want to let it all out
I want to let it all out till I get tired of it.
2 days feels like forever.
It's draining me emotionally, mentally, physically.
I should have seen this coming.
I'm entering the deep dark hole again.
Even when I told myself I wouldn't put myself in it again.
I miss you )':

we both know it wasn't meant to end this way.
I know I gotta accept the truth and reality.
but its just so crazy hard
after all the things we had gone through together.
Honestly, if could give it another chance, I would.