RECENT ENTRIES
Date / Time : Sunday, July 20, 2014 / 12:17 PM
To be treated with so much love and care.
To know there is someone out there who is afraid to lose me.
To know there is someone out there who is willing to fight for me even if I'm not being myself.
Date / Time : / 11:55 AM
"I've never expected that kind of intentions from you.
I've never taught you to be that way.
You better get hold of yourself and start doing the right things."
Date / Time : Sunday, June 1, 2014 / 10:10 AM
I can't help but smile.
After all that craziness and frustration, we managed to overcome the things that literally make us fall apart.
To be where we are today, compared to where we were months back, all those patience, those discovery of life lessons really paid off.
We could just gave up and find something new but I'm glad we unknowingly share the same belief that things should be resolved when it is still possible.
Date / Time : Sunday, April 13, 2014 / 11:15 PM
2014 is gonna be one of my favourite year.
Yes, I am gonna make it my year.
This time round, I am going to overcome every obstacle I face with grace and positivity.
This time round, I am going to look and focus on the good in people and things.
This time round, I am going to take care of myself with more love and replace every self-inflicting thoughts I have on myself.
This time round, I am going to acknowledge any negative thoughts that enter but I am taking the effort to replace it with positive thoughts.
This time round, I am going to obtain that work-life balance I have always wanted.
This time round, I am going to give thanks to all the wonderful things that are happening in my life daily and feel it in my whole being.
This time round, I am going to live each day feeling awesome and with the thought that something wonderful is going to happen. Because if you seek it, something wonderful always happen(:
This time round, I am going to lift myself higher than before.
This time round, I am going to take that step forward and give unconditional love to everyone around me.
This time round, I am going to acknowledge whenever I fall, but I promise to pick myself up and be stronger than before.
This time round, I am going to patient with everyone and everything around me.
I have done this before but it got lose along the way. My heart has been yearning for this change again.
"Dear heart,
I know I have been ignoring you. I know I have decided to listen to people's words instead of yours. I have ignored you to a point that you couldn't take it anymore that it is reflected through my actions. That breakdown has definitely made me hear your pleading a little louder. This time, I am going to listen to you even more now. For listening to the heart always leads to the best kind of life. Thank you for not giving up on me. I'm grateful that my inner voice has not been drown by others."
Date / Time : Saturday, March 22, 2014 / 3:28 PM
Perhaps, you still have not forgiven me despite my apology
Perhaps, you are too hurt to even face or talk to me
Perhaps, I have crushed your heart to the point of no return
Forgive me for my words.
Forgive me for every hurtful words I said that you don't even deserve
Forgive me for my actions that never showed you how I truly felt
Forgive me for my fears were controlling me more than my heart and mind
You accepting my apology is all I need
To bring about more peace into my heart
But till then,
I'll still pray for your recovery.
And I'll pray that I get that second chance to make things right again.
Good things are worth the wait right? You are one of the many good things in my life (:
Date / Time : Friday, March 21, 2014 / 11:04 AM
"If you’re smart, you know a good thing when you see one. And this person with the walls seemingly unbreakable just might be the best thing you’ll have seen in a long, long time. So when the break down and the fight seem too much, remember what you’re fighting for. Remember than underneath the layers of doubt and distance is a person with a heart that could have been molded just for you. Loving someone with walls is never easy. But sometimes, if you’re lucky, the fight is more than worth it. "
@http://thoughtcatalog.com/isabel-hershko/2014/03/this-is-what-happens-when-you-love-someone-who-has-built-up-walls/
I love how thought catalog articles always gets to me(:
Date / Time : Sunday, February 16, 2014 / 10:03 PM
I'm putting my walls up for protection sake.
I can't deny that this fear is getting bigger.
This fear confuses me.
I thought maybe this is too early to be happening.
But, if this is what God wants me to go through now, then I have to brace through it.
Everyday, I search the reason for this situation.
But I know I have to have faith and patience, and slowly the reason will appear.
I can have the advices of everyone , but to weigh all down is so tiring.
"Ya Allah, give me the guidance I need to go through this matter because only with You would things get better."
Date / Time : Tuesday, February 11, 2014 / 11:54 PM
I told myself to take 3 steps forward,
but now I'm taking 5 steps back.
But it's okay. Cause as much as I have no idea why this happen, the reasons will appear soon.
#havefaith
Date / Time : Sunday, February 9, 2014 / 11:33 PM
"If you come any closer,
If you fall any deeper,
Darling, you're going to get your heart broken.
I already have my own broken pieces,
I don't want to break another.
My vulnerability, I'm trying to hold it together.
Your vulnerability, I can only do what's best for you to pick yourself up.
But don't go falling for me, I can be a danger to your heart.
So as you heal better, go far sweetheart, far from me.
That's all I'm asking from you.
Your heart doesn't need to be shattered one more time."
Date / Time : Saturday, February 1, 2014 / 7:28 PM
If someone makes you feel uncomfortable and insecure every time you’re with them, for whatever reason, they’re probably not close friend material. If they make you feel like you can’t be yourself, or if they make you “less than” in any way, don’t pursue a connection with them. If you feel emotionally drained after hanging out with them or get a small hit of anxiety when you are reminded of them, listen to your intuition. There are so many “right people” for you, who energize you and inspire you to be your best self. It makes no sense to force it with people who are the wrong match for you.
Credits: Marcandangel.com
To my amazing, amazing friends that have been with me for many years or those that I have just met few years back, thank you for letting me be me. For supporting me in one way or another, for spreading love in the most unexpected manner. For joining me to do crazy adventures together, to laughing over the silliest matter, to laughing at me for my silliness but yet tell me how much you love me. To those who are protective of me and still stood by me even when I said I rather follow my heart despite your wonderful advices. And all those heart to heart talk that we share. And for telling me how much I mean to you, and how you proud you are of me.
Thank you.
I wouldn't have been where I am and who I am if it wasn't for you guys.
Thank you Allah for letting me meet these bunch of wonderful sweethearts.
All of you matter much more than you think (:
